Ambien and anti-ego…sorry Freud

19. March 2009 by Bex.

I have a few photos of Ron’s viewpoint of Ambien.  I guess he found me passed out with my book in my hands.  I don’t recall falling asleep but I am aware that it takes me twice as long to get through a book these days.  Oh well, at least I sleep.

Sometimes I wonder about this whole blogging thing.  I am sure some people think I do it because I have some ego, some feeling of self-importance.  Perhaps that what I have to say is so goddamn important that I deserve to post it on a blog.  I’ve also had people tell me not to put anything too important or revealing about myself on the internet.  I guess I never considered that my blogs had anything to say of any real interest.  I just hoped that whatever I had to say would help someone someday or make them laugh.  It’s also been a good outlet for me to vent my feelings.  And by finally making it public, I would be able to quit being a privacy Nazi with the whole thing.  I also hope no one thinks I’m doing it because I want anyone to feel sorry for me, i. e., “woe is me” crap.  I think I have the worst self-esteem.  I hate having the spot light on me so much that I don’t even want someone to feel sorry for me because that is attention I just don’t want.  For every one thing I like about myself, there are 10 that I hate.  Sorry Freud, I just don’t have much of an ego.  I could probably use a little of one but hey, such is life!

So what’s new?  Work is much better now that I’m managing my stress levels finally.  I’m having yet another BLEEPING surgery in about a month.  I’m not too happy about that but hopefully the recovery time will be less than a week.  I’ve never had an MRI before but will have one tomorrow.  No biggie.  Umm….Patton just farted and now my whole immediate air supply is tainted.  Good lord! And I’m completely and utterly ready for the weekend.  I’d really like some time to sleep in and relax.  Then again, wouldn’t we all?

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