Ever feel just beat down?

8. June 2009 by Bex.

I swear, the more I try to assert myself as a professional, the more resistance I get.  I kind of feel like the TP to wipe up after the pee-ons.  I don’t think that those in control of this aspect of my life are doing it because they know my background and truly believe me to be incompetent.  I think it’s being done because of outside personal influences.  Sorry to be so amiguous but I don’t want to get too detailed.  Basically I have a passion at work, I try to implement my passion at my work and I feel I do a good job of it, and someone thinks (without merit) that I suck at it.  So this person squashes anything and everything I do in relation to it.

One thing I’ve learned by having chronic illnesses is that you have to choose your battles.  Stress is the ultimate enemy.  It makes everything worse; magnifies pain, heightens emotions, saps energy.  In other words, fuck it.  This isn’t worth it.

All I really want to do is take photographs and be a mom.  Those things matter more than work drama.

Frozen pizza awaits!  Ahhh it’s the little shit that makes me happy.

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