31. July 2009 by Bex.

Some of you know that I am on a drug called Ambien.  It helps you sleep.  I take it every night because certain problems in my brain prevent me from sleeping.  Anyways, I like to record some of my more interesting conversations with Ron that I have when the Ambien kicks in.  I almost never remember anything about these discussions.  Sometimes, I hate to admit, I get mad at Ron for stupid reasons; but sometimes I apparently am very amusing.  (Not long ago I apparently became angry with Ron because he giggled at me when I said something silly.  I left the room and laid down in the guest room.  Ron found me in there watching Spanish softcore porn on HBO.  I remember NONE of this.)

Last night I apparently told Ron that I would like to check out the library where knickers are optional.  (Wtf?  I never say “knickers!”)  I then threw my underwear at him.  When he tried to get me to go to sleep, he asked if I was planning on removing my glasses.  I was convinced that he also needed to remove his, however he wasn’t wearing any.  I then groped his face to find his glasses and remarked he didn’t seem to actually be wearing them.  He told me they were there, only very thin, and I had just broken them.  “Huh,” I said.  Then I rolled onto my back and within seconds, was asleep.

This is why you should NEVER take this drug around someone you don’t trust or if you live alone.  Or for god’s sakes, don’t take it on an overnight plane trip.  You might be arrested for running around naked, insisting that a warning should exist for the water because it induces biscuits on the penis.

Seriously.  All of you should give Ron props for taking care of my goofy ass.

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30. July 2009 by Bex.

It’s been about six months now since I started trying to get off Cymbalta.  Since then my Fibro has become worse.  I’ve had to start a new drug through a neurologist, I just started physical therapy, and I’ve had to ask for FMLA leave and ADA accommodations.  I can’t talk about things at work because I will likely be fired.  I don’t want that!  Maybe when it is all over, I can fill you all in.

My brain is pretty fuzzy lately.  I can’t seem to remember things on the short term and I have a hard time concentrating.  Video games are near impossible right now.  I have to take the Cymbalta every three to four days, at the same time I take my normal drug cocktail.  That doesn’t feel very good….racing heart, nausea, sweating.  It only lasts a few hours but it’s not pretty.  Until I can get off this horrible drug, I’ll have to put up with it.

That’s about all for my update right now.  Like I said above, I just can’t concentrate!

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18. July 2009 by Bex.

I survived another week of Hell at work.  The harassment has somewhat abated but things have turned into a pretty uncomfortable work environment.  I am trying to get a bunch of medical records together and that is  very time consuming.  I also saw a new doctor yesterday: a neurologist.  She was very nice and talked to me about how Fibromyalgia is a problem with the neuro-receptors in the brain.  The brain processes pain differently and the smallest bit of pain is amplified.  She told me to quit a couple drugs I’m on and try something new.  So here’s to hoping I don’t react negatively to it.  I’m so damn sensitive to chemicals so I’m sure I’ll have at least some side effects.

I’ve been keeping calm and distracted from work by doing more stitching.  It’s been a nice way to keep my sense of humor alive.  Here are my two latest:

I’m going to finally cave and set up an Etsy shop.  More on that later.

I better get going.  We are going to have lunch at the Cinema Suites and watch Transformers 2.  Maybe next weekend we’ll get some tickets to Harry Potter.  I’m so geeked!

I leave you with a photo my friend Summer sent me the other day.  It sums up my feelings from the past two weeks PERFECTLY:

Have a good Saturday!

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10. July 2009 by Bex.

Wow, what a week!  Soon, soon my dear friends, I’ll be able to blog fully about this.  You will shit your pants when I tell you what’s going on.  All I can say is don’t ever get chronically sick; and, don’t EVER assume that anyone else will look after your legal rights.

When someone tells you to “calm down” when you already are calm, and are simply inquiring about details to a situation or your right regarding such situation, be suspicious.

When someone puts emotion into your inquiries regarding a situation, having documentation for your files about it, or asking for any clarification, be suspicious.  (i.e., insinuation that you are upset or anxious simply because you are addressing an issue.)

Get everything in writing.  No matter how wonderful the person is that you are dealing with.

People are afraid of those with education and tenacity.

Never let legal fees scare you away from consulting an attorney.

Research, research, research.  The best defense is information.

God help me, but I feel like I have a sign now to take action in my life.  I need to make changes in order to be happy and healthy.  I want to be able to do my absolute best and to be recognized for that effort.  I’m tired of competitiveness over basic issues.  I’m tired of having my voice silenced.  I’m tired of my enthusiasm being suppressed.  God bless America.  The only place where you have a litany of laws to back you up when you really need it.

Oddly enough I have this song running through my brain:

Now I’m gonna tell ya a story
A tale of wrong and Right
and freedom is the reason
You can’t take it without a fight

So now I’m startin’ up a posse
(Suck my dick, suck my dick)
To come and look for you
We’re gonna put a stop
To what you want to do
You fucking whores (You fuckin’ whores)
That’s all you are

You say our records are offensive
(You’re a douche, You’re a douche)
Our messages ain’t right
You say “We’re gonna label records
So our kids can grow up right”
You fucking whores (Let them decide)
That’s all you are

shit, fuck, satan, death, sex drugs, rape
These seven words you’re trying to take
shit, fuck, Satan, death, sex, drugs, rape
Right or wrong it’s our choice to make
America the beautiful, Land of the free
Don’t change the words to land of Hypocrisy

Now I’m startin’ up a posse (Fascist scum, fascist scum)
And we’ll damn sure make you see
Something that offends you
May not be offensive to me
You f*cking whores (You fuckin’ whores)
That’s all you are

Now you might take offense
To a word like “fuck” or “shit” (Dick!)
But you fuckin’ don’t have the right (Cunt!)
To discriminate me for saying it!
You fuckin’ whores (You fuckin’ whores)
That’s all you are (Go suck a dick, huh)

So now I’m startin’ up a posse (Motherfucker, motherfucker)
To fight for freedom of choice
To fight for freedom of speech
We’re gonna make you hear our voice

And now I don’t do this to shock you
(That’s the end, that’s the end)
I don’t do this for spite
You’ve got the choice, don’t buy it, don’t read it,
And don’t say your opinion’s right
You f*cking whores (You fuckin’ whores)
That’s all you are (Cunty, cunty, cunty, cunt)

You know you can’t censor my feelings
You can’t censor my thoughts
Censorship’s against
Everything America stands for
You fuckin’ whores (Let us decide)
That’s all you are (And this ain’t sexist, either)

God bless America.

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6. July 2009 by Bex.

I saw my doc last week.  She is very sympathetic and wants to help me get off this medication.  She bumped me down to 20 mg and wants me to take it everyday for a week, then every other day, then every third, day, etc.  I hope this works.  Taking it everyday is the suck.  It’s hard to get back on it everyday; I don’t sleep, feel jacked up.  I am not a lot of fun to be around lately and have been keeping close to home for the most part.  It’s hard enough functioning at work let alone socializing.  Hopefully this will get better soon!

With that being said, we really didn’t do anything this weekend.  We went out to the park with the dogs and went out for ice cream.  It rained a lot and when it wasn’t rainy, it was steamy/humid/nasty.  But hey, time off is time off.  I’ll take what I can get!

I’m also working on a new cross stitch.  It’s a good way to keep my brain focused and my thoughts off of how I feel.  It’s not done yet but here is what I have so far:

I started stitching Tom Servo last night.  I’ll post a photo after it’s complete.

Hope everyone had a safe and happy 4th!

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