21. June 2010 by Bex.

We are closing to making a decision on wtf to do with my jerk-ass uterus. 

I had my ultrasound and basically they found fluid behind the uterus again and some cysts.  My doc thinks I shouldn’t be making cysts as I’ve been on birth control since last fall.  I have no idea what that is supposed to mean.  My uterus is also enlarged.  I guess it’s been taking illegal steroids or something.  She also said it’s possible that the type of endometriosis I have could be in the muscles or just making cysts and scar tissue.  Unless they do some biopsies, they just can’t tell.  The intramuscular type is harder to treat apparently.  Hahahhaaa seriously.  Great.

I refused the Lupron.  I don’t want to risk it with my RA and I don’t care to risk gaining a lot of weight, joint pain, and TEH CRAZY.  So at the rate I’m at, I will have surgery to clear out the adhesions about every 1.5 years.  Or I can have our kid now and get this shit removed for good.  We are going to consult with high risk pregnancy and fertility doctors.  Depending on what they say, we’ll make our decision.  This shit is coming out though…it’s just a matter of time.  I’m pretty damned tired of dealing with it.  Take it out!!!!!!!!!!!!

Surgery to clear things out for now will happen mid-July.  Hopefully I don’t miss too much work so that I can keep my job.  I’m hoping for a quick recovery. 

I’ve been on so much pain medicine lately that I can’t even think of what else to post right now.  So tired.  Ratchet’s been sick.  So between medicating him and Rowdy, I sometimes forget to take my own shit.  Whoops. 

However I did do something rather interesting last week.  I was in St. Joseph for work and stopped by the Glore Psychiatric Museum which is this very disjointed exhibit in an old asylum.  It’s creepy as shit  and just weird.

Here are some photos:

The morgue

Stomach contents of a compulsive swallower.

Two-way observation mirror.

Salem’s way of dealing with the insane.

Electro-shock therapy

You can see the rest of the photos on my Flickr.  It’s a cheap entrance fee and very interesting.  I recommend it.

Other than that, I’m doing well.  Ron just got a new job that he starts in a couple weeks.  He’s pretty excited and this will be a step up for him.  I’ve also just felt so stressed that I have no tolerance for bull shit anymore.  And just for little things.  I’d rather just confront a problem or person directly than to play stupid mind games.  I’ve realized how uncomfortable this makes people.  I guess this world has become so passive/aggressive that most people can’t handle direct confrontation.  I’m sure if I had more patience, I could be a little more tactful at times.  Oh well. 

Take care everyone.

Tschus.

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4. June 2009 by Bex.

I started an account on Imagekind.com a while ago.  It’s a lot like art.com but anyone can upload images to sell.  It’s also a great way of connecting with other artists, most of whom are commercial artists.  Also people start accounts there so they can print and frame their images.  Everyday they feature certain artists and artwork and today one of mine is there.  I’m really happy and excited about it.  I’ve been in a creative slump lately and this was just the motivation I needed to continue.

I have a couple photography field trips planned.  I’d like to visit some of the area historic cemeteries.  There is also a KC Zombie Walk tomorrow downtown.  What a cool opportunity to get some unique shots!  Here is the link: http://www.myspace.com/kczombies.  I think it will be unique and fun and it coincides with First Friday in the Crossroads Art District.  http://www.kccrossroads.org/  I’ll be sure to post images later.

I also want to mention today that I got a bunch of free tickets to the Narnia exhibit.  If any of the locals are interested in going, I can give you a ticket or two.  Please let me know and I’ll hook you up!  I think it’s safe to say that the success of the exhibit will help to extend my job and the jobs of many others.  Kind of a big deal.

That’s my exciting news.  I have to say I’m tickled freakin’ pink about the photo site.  It really makes me want to keep trying.  I never expect to make a dime from anything I shoot.  I’m simply doing it because I love it.  It’s a great outlet for an introvert like me.

I leave you with my favorite youtube video of the day, Advanced Cat Yodeling:

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24. May 2009 by Bex.

Whenever I’m out driving around, I have all these potential blog posts running through my brain.  But by the time I find myself back in front of a computer, I’ve forgotten everything.  Now my brain is mush, yet here I sit, trying to squeak out something interesting.

Despite attempts at living a normal, healthy life, we’ve been hit with a couple fun ailments.  I spent a week pissing blood and the next week Ron threw his back out completely.  Since it happened at work, he’s home and doing the workman’s comp thing.  He has an MRI scheduled this week and hopefully they can figure out how to help him.  He’s in an incredible amount of pain.  We’re only in our early 30’s and we haven’t even had kids yet.  But we’re both walking around like old people.  This does not bode well.  Maybe they can outfit a stroller to also be a walker?  Seriously, I think another year of working on my health and having time to spend with Ron by myself is a good thing.  I still think we’ll have to adopt and maybe that is a good thing to start working on next year.

Work has been filled lately with helping researchers, fighting with the IT department to fix computer issues so I can scan images and assessing the condition of wax phonographs from the late 1890’s.  One of the things I love about my job is the variety of work I do.  I can sit at a computer all day and the next day find myself pulling old mattresses out of a really old train car.

The big hoopla at work lately has been the opening of The Chronicles of Narnia exhibit.  www.unionistation.org  It has a lot of props and costumes from the Narnia movies and it also talks about global climate issues and environmentalism.  They tied that theme into it based on the White Witch’s attempts to basically create an ice age on earth.  The sets are really rich and interesting and it’s cool to see objects and costumes.  The interactives are interesting as well.  I didn’t take any photos of the inside of the exhibit but I took this picture of a Giant outside the ticketing office:

Our department didn’t help set this exhibit up.  Because this is a private company’s exhibit and because the objects are mostly props, they didn’t need museum professionals to do the installation.  I’ve worked with this company before to install an exhibit and it’s very different from working with a museum exhibit.  No white gloves on this one. 

So there you have it! That’s my update, for now. I have other things I want to blog about but Roxanne is here for the last time until the end of summer. Hope everyone is having a groovy holiday!Tschus!

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